Feel Empty

Everyone is asking how I'm doing, Well after what I been though and what I went though I will probably never get the picture out of my head ( I know it going to take time) . This the hardest Christmas for me to deal with this year. I just feel very empty inside.
It really hard for me to see anyone pregnant, To hear about other being pregnant, Or hearing or talking about baby. Or to even go in the baby department at stores.. Even when people ask me how I'm doing I just start to cry . I find myself cryign when I'm alone ( So my son don't see me or hear me).
Not to be mean I wish people would understand this I know I need to talk about it and get it out . I have people to talk to about it that help me daily deal with I'm going though.. I just can't be around other that want to talk babies, being pregnant or ask me tons of question about what happen. I'm sorry but it really dose hurt me alot inside and I may look fine and seem fine . But deep deep down inside I'm HURTTING and missing my baby ! Even sitting here letting you all know how I'm feeling, I cry wondering what happen, What went wrong???
I really don't know what I would done without My Sisters or My Mom and My Friends, and My Doctors. What I'm going though they been here for me everyday and making sure I'm ok supporting me alot. Thank you Jen, Beth and Mom, I love you all !
Well I need to go rest and try to get some sleep If I can , I'm sick and these meds making me sleepy.
Good Nite
Merry Christmas
Love & Hugs Sue

Our Baby Became Angel December 20th 2010

On December 20th 2010 Our 2nd Mircle Baby Went To Heaven

Though We didn't know you , You will surly be missed and was very loved

Our Baby Became Angel December 20th 2010

On December 20th 2010 Our 2nd Mircle Baby Went To Heaven

Though We didn't know you , You will surly be missed and was very loved

Got Some Very Exciting News To Repot:O)!!!

Good Morning Everyone, Sorry I havn't been around in a week or so. Bryton just started to feel better other then he has a cold ., Has to go have some testing done but I let you all know about that later on this week after we see the doctor for his testing.


Big News :
Over the weekend I was feeling not so well and having some female issuess so I took 2 pg test and they come out postvie .. So I called the doctor on monday morning and went for the blood test and we got a call back this morning.

WE GOING TO HAVING OUR 2ND BABY!!! I'm 5 weeks along and see our little one day for thanksgiving. I'm very excited about baby. I just hoping everyone else will be too. We was very surprised over this lil one I wasn't on no meds to have her or him. So this was a BIG Surprise to Me and Daniel...
Well I need get off here have to take daniel to his doctort appt and get part for our broken sink.
have a great day everyone!!! Hugs Sue and Bryton